I have no idea what I want to write about today. I've been nervous and praying a lot lately. I'm ready for things to improve, something to go my way but it doesn't seem like its ever going to. It disheartening and simply just hard to deal with. How is all this sadness supposed to be Gods plan?
I haven't ran in over a week, I know it will make me feel better if I go. Its just hard to make yourself do it.
Im at this point where I either just keep the secret and put it away because nothing actually came out of it, or I tell and get people worrying about me and more sorrys. Neither option sounds very good.