You will never be the person you once were. You may learn to enjoy life again, you may be able to look back and be sad and miss them so very much but you'll never be you before tragedy. We now know that good things happen to good people. I sometimes stop and wonder if she would upset that I am letting myself get worked up over something I have no control over and then I wonder how I can just sit idly by while people get hurt. It can be easy to turn a blind eye to something when you know you shouldn't.
Four years later I am sitting in Alaska, freezing my behind off and wishing I was back home so I could visit Megan's grave. To be with family so that they can experience more of the "girls who lived" lives. Emily is so stubborn and a fireball. She is so much like me but so much like her father that we clash so often. She is just amazing tho watching her develop her personality into this amazing girl who will be double digits this year. How does that even happen? How does time move like this? Years just passing by.
Amanda is 2.5 now and she is just hilarious. So different from the other two. She stomps to the corner when she is mad and crosses her arms. She has only recently started throwing tantrums. She can be hard to redirect because she seems to hold grudges lol. She is pretty amazing tho and im blessed to have her in my life. To have and have held all three in my life is absolutely amazing.
The negative temps here are not to be messed with. Bundled up we can only handle about 15 minutes at a time.