Wednesday, November 23, 2011
I wish I could
I wish I could imagine her now at the age of 3 running around, talking, and being silly. As I was sitting at gymnastics today, there were some 3 year olds running around and I just can't picture her. Makes me so sad. I miss her so very much. Emily misses her so much. She was looking at pictures on my phone the other day in the car and when I turned to get my phone back she had tears running down her face. They were supposed to be sharing a room, bunk beds were supposed to be in that room. Emily wanted a little sister to sleep with when they were scared or just needed someone. Yes we have Amanda but its starting all over. Shes a baby that can't do anything you know. I hate grief. I hate it. I hate missing my child so much. I want her here, I want all of my girls. It isn't fair.