Life after the death of a toddler
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
I wish I could
I wish I could imagine her now at the age of 3 running around, talking, and being silly. As I was sitting at gymnastics today, there were some 3 year olds running around and I just can't picture her. Makes me so sad. I miss her so very much. Emily misses her so much. She was looking at pictures on my phone the other day in the car and when I turned to get my phone back she had tears running down her face. They were supposed to be sharing a room, bunk beds were supposed to be in that room. Emily wanted a little sister to sleep with when they were scared or just needed someone. Yes we have Amanda but its starting all over. Shes a baby that can't do anything you know. I hate grief. I hate it. I hate missing my child so much. I want her here, I want all of my girls. It isn't fair.
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It is so sad when your other children cry over the loss of a sibling. My Emily was praying at the dinner table tonight and just burst into tears because Micah wasn't here. It was so very sad. I am so so sorry that your Emily has to go through such pain. I know that makes your pain much much worse. You and your beautiful girls are in my thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Mary
oh, how I feel for you. To see Emily's tears, it must have broken your heart. Such an immense loss for all of you.
(((hugs)))
It isn't fair at all :'(
I'm so sorry, it's hard to think of our babies aging, I try to do it all the time.
I can't envision Makenna any older than her 9 months and 18 days. I don't want this to sound bad, but I know in my heart it was because that just wasn't the plan for her life or for my life. I do envision her in heaven a lot though. Mainly picturing lights that bring me warmth and happiness.
Praying for you this holiday season.
Right there with you feeling how unfair it is and wishing I too had all my girls. Sending much love to all of your beautiful girls and to you of course. xxxx
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